I guess I am hoping it's not necessary, since somehow it has proven to physically take a ridiculous amount of time.
I guess my highest hope is that i might learn to better express myself, multiplying that part of me which shines brightest and yet often proves the most alienating.
And maybe if i have mantra for my values, these things will come easier for me, not tearing my heart in so many directions.
I do feel trapped, still. Even after keeping my travels mostly solitary, Chester is going to feel claustrophobic.